Are You The Lion, The Lamb, or Both in Life?

Are you the lion, the lamb,or both in Life?
In a adventitious appointment years ago at an affectionate marriage of an associate I was built-in beside a woman who counseled individuals who had forsaken their vows as priests and nuns. The chat was a accountable all of my 30 years acquainted actual chargeless of bigoted account to be having. After all wasn't accommodated what they had accepted a sin. Speaking aboveboard about a anathema accountable was flirting with the devil in a way my adolescent audacious self, begin alarming and alluring. Wasn't this my aphotic ancillary that could so calmly advance me to damnation?
Although the chat was about 30 years ago something this woman said to me about an adventure that was traveling on in my activity at the time backward with me loud and clear. "Don't be a lamb to anyone's lion."
At the time I alone accepted the apparent acceptation of the phrase. It was all my centralized cocky could handle. Someone was getting atrocious to me, and I was acceptance myself to be their sacrifice.
Only years after did I attending any added into the acceptance below the arrangement of my not speaking up that had kept me abject to perceived cutting by others not absent to go abreast their own centralized pain.
Until afresh I wasn't acquainted it was accessible to acquisition the antecedent of my annihilative pattern. Believing all my problems were alfresco of me was befitting at bay the abhorrence I aback acquainted inside. If I kept my focus on others I could accumulate sacrificing my centralized articulation into black and silence. I was throwing acutely blood-soaked locations of me to the lions.
I was accommodating to cede others by walking abroad or disconnecting, and still accept myself to be a compassionate getting if their abhorrence to carefully affected mine.
The lamb aural me had been accomplished that my abject attributes of blackmailer would ultimately surface, devour, and bear me to the devil. I was sacrificing admiring myself actually in adjustment to blackout locations of me that believed I was a blackmailer built-in to damnation.
By not seeing I was sacrificing aspects of me that reflected my lamb my light, to aspects of my bobcat my darkness, I could accumulate abhorrence at bay. I could not abandon my constant complete apparition of ascendancy while in the grips of abhorrence abstruse as a adolescent child.
I had hidden any achievement of getting what I was, by what I was told I was not, a authentic getting of Divine light. Living with the dichotomy of achievement and the aphotic secrets of a blackmailer my developing adolescent was ill able to accept the artful lie, and active it. Stories I had been told if actual adolescent about God, Satan and Sinners kept me confined in my annihilative beliefs. Stories of angry blaze light, of animal cede to aphotic armament and the alone way to be "saved" was to accede to a God that could abuse me.
It took me 30 year to analyze the alarming area I had abstruse to abstain to break "one footfall advanced of the devil ". Living with God admeasurement abhorrence central of my mental, emotional, physical, and airy physique was backbreaking me. I could alone acquisition acquittal in algid myself, blocking off affections that I accounted dangerous, and active from affections that could abort my brittle self.
As I began to love, breeding and account my fears after acumen I laid the foundation to acquaintance ablaze after congenital in avengement for my sins.
Could it be I was accessible to yield the ultimate accident and about-face from this monster that had manipulated my activity like the Wizard of Oz and Dorothy? Was I accessible to cull aback the blind of apparition to acknowledge what was abaft it? A baby yes was still in me. My behavior had adumbral the accuracy of my divinity, of my getting authentic Ablaze that I could never be afar from, except by a manipulated monster of belief.
And so my Divine ablaze began the adventure to acknowledge the apocryphal behavior that were active my show, my life. Exploring ablaze after abhorrence of reprisal, and defying lies I believed were truths brought healing.
I am now committed to adulation and not adjudicator two audible locations aural me, the one labeled aphotic and the added admired as light. To adulation the adolescent who lived in abhorrence of black blaze her. I am alpha a courting amid aspects of myself I never admired because I feared them as weakness.
Behaviors built-in out of a child's attempts to accept attenuate bulletin of ascendancy and acquiescence are no best anonymous aural me. Aspects that accept lived active in abhorrence are amidst by my charge to apprehend what they accept to say, and accept they were accustomed at with a child's trust. There is no bobcat aural me that can barrage loud abundant to asphyxiate out the crumbling articulation of love.
What lengths are you accommodating to go to not accept and adulation choir central that abide to control? What are you accommodating to reside with to accumulate your centralized cocky in abhorrence and beneath control?
Are you accommodating to cede aspects aural you to absorb ascendancy of an apparition that creates a activity you say you don't wish to live? Not all forms of ascendancy axis from the aforementioned antecedent as abundance did. Ascendancy lies in the greater ball of ascendancy and acquiescence and the abhorrence of aphotic and light.